Saturday, July 7, 2018

Barely Functioning

I'm barely functioning missing our Barney boy, but I need to make more pottery so I have to keep working. I push myself through my salty tears. Cherished Barney has been missing for almost a week. Out of town family situations and lack of responses have left me weary. Sad to say human interactions are more predictable than the unexpected loss of our treasured one.

I fired a bisque load, now a glaze load is sitting in the kiln ready to fire. I'm waiting for a break in thunderstorms, been raining every day. We contacted every neighbor within a mile or more, we went to the shelter and called animal control, no luck. The lady at the shelter knew what I meant when I said Barney was more like a dog than a cat. Every little shadow or noise makes me look around expecting to see our Barney boy.
Gary picked the harvest yesterday, three eggplant (two varieties) and one lemon cucumber. This year, amazingly, hundreds of wild honey bees are pollinating the lemon cucumbers. They dive deep into the flower to get the pollen. A small pleasure had me watching them marveling at the resilience of nature. In many other locations I also see wild honey bees, when years past I saw none.
Beekeeper honey this year is thin, very thin. I say to beekeepers let the bees have the honey, they need it. I'm not a beekeeper any longer but the winter was long and harsh, spring barely there, now summer wet with little pollen produced. Nectar is scarce. Don't take from the bees who've provided year after year so generously. Let them have their due. Today I'll be at the farmers market from 7a to 1p. Thanks for reading and for all your comments.

12 comments:

  1. I'm also walking around with a big hole in my life, the space formerly taken up by a warm furry friend. It sure is hard to live without them. It's now been 2 weeks since my cat died. I'm so sorry that you're also missing Barney. He was such a joy in your life. Keep remembering him. Keep talking to him. So what if people think you're crazy!

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    1. Hi Barbara, thanks, I am so sorry, I had no idea you had lost your furry friends. I must have missed that post. yes, I keep calling his name and missing him.

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  2. This is too sad...I feel your sadness, Linda. I really do. I love my two cats more than anything else...I do understand how you are feeling. I hope Barney turns up soon...and was just hiding away from all the rain you'd had. All my positive thoughts are with you - and with Barney willing him to come home to you.

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    1. Hi Lee, thanks sadly Gary found some coyote skat at the bottom of the driveway with some fur in it, we are thinking the worst.

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  3. I wouldn't give up hope, Linda. I know you can't help fearing the worst... but sometimes miracles happen. We had a mama cat whose 2 kittens disappeared one night. She cried and cried looking for them for weeks. We thought a coyote had probably gotten them. One day she came home with one of the kittens. We named the kitten 'Miracle'.

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    1. Hi Rian, thanks, I do believe in miracles, but I also believe in reality, time will tell.

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  4. I am so sorry. It hurts like hell.

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    1. Hi Sue, thanks, yes crying and crying

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  5. I am so sorry about Barney. You must feel at your wits end.
    For what it’s worth have had a least three cats in the past who have disappeared for weeks, even months at a time. They all came home with an attitude of, ‘I don’t know why you are so upset, I’m here aren’t I?’

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    1. Hi Suzi, thanks, I have had previous pets come home but this time I think it isn't possible and believe me i would hope it would because this cat was very special to us both.

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  7. I'm so, so sorry, Linda. This breaks my heart.

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